New Year Reflections

Time passes so fast sometimes. I blink and I realize it's been far too long since I've updated this blog (sorry). I mentioned the upcoming vlog series back in August and that came and went without my promoting it here (really sorry). I filmed and uploaded my 50th birthday countdown videos and hopefully if you're …

A New Year, A New Decade

I hadn't intended to leave this blog stagnant for over a year, yet here we are. The past year was eventful, which led me to not have the bandwidth to maintain my blogs. Since my last post, I survived five surgeries, lost one of my beloved dogs, and published my second novel. I also began …

Life is a Cancer

All the negative news these past few weeks has exposed the cancer that has been festering in our society for decades. The civil rights and equal rights movements of the 1960s and 70s may have driven it underground, but it has never truly gone away. We were lulled into a false sense of complacency and …

Beginning my Transition

So, about three weeks ago, I began my gender transition with my first testosterone injection. When I first came out as genderqueer a year ago, I wasn't sure if I wanted to transition. However, after doing a lot more research and soul searching, I came to realize that this was the right step for me …

Becoming a Novelist

It seems I'm doing a lot of "becoming" lately, although in many ways these changes have been a long time coming. As I've mentioned before, I started writing fan fiction in 2015, which was also the same year I wrote my first novel during NaNoWriMo, Artifact of the Dawn. It's over two years later and …

Becoming Who I Want to Be

I've spent most of my life trying to conform to other's expectations. I told myself that I wasn't conforming at all, but even adopting labels like geek or tomboy, were still ways of me conforming to others' expectations. As a young child, I insisted I was a boy. Everything about boys resonated with me, while …

Stuck in Limbo

Lately I've very much felt as if I'm stuck in limbo. I have a need to move forward with my life, but I'm stuck treading water and it's getting to a point where it's really frustrating. I no longer have the same love and passion for my consulting work that I once had. A big …

Being Bi-Gender

I am still doing a lot of self-discovery and introspection these days. As I recently posted, I have come to realize that I am on the asexual spectrum, being both demisexual and sapiosexual. Another thing I have come to realize is that I am not strictly cisgender either (cisgender is identifying with the sex you …

Coming Out as Demisexual

One thing that I have noticed over the past year since losing my husband, is the fact that a lot of people seem to take great interest in my sex life (or lack thereof). If I say "it's too soon" they will often back off but if I say that I have no interest in …

Good Reflections on a Bad Year

It's been a long time since I've had the motivation to write a blog post, but this time of year always leads me to reflecting on the past, and this year is no exception. My 2016 started off pretty bad, fighting to keep my husband from drowning in despair, and then losing him anyway. Not …